when i'm sad.i will always neglect the people who concerned me around me.i think i neglected and hurt you this time around.i seriously dun mean to.i dunno how to say so that you will believe and understand how much your messages of comfort meant to me.i told alot of people that i'm so happy when during service i received your message.i felt protected and being cared for.i felt so happy that you read my blog and even go to the extent to message to make sure i'm doing fine.but what i did?think i'm so so too much to forget you.please forgive the blinded sad meijun.you know how much friends meant to me?i can't afford to lose one.so precious like you.who care for almost everyone's feeling.to the extent you are the one always hurt): i apologise if i did hurt you again.i really dun mean to.i know you will understand.but people do get sick of being understanding.but please forgive me once again.i dun want to lose you.i meant all my words.i took all your words seriously too(: i remembered all that you said.just that when i'm sad.i tend to neglect my friends.i know i'm selfish.i really apologise.think i have hurt enough people already))': i dun want to hurt people anymore.i didn't know my one word will hurt you so much.i apologise again.i wanted to apologise about the french lecture too.i so wanted to accompany you): i know it will hurt you.even if its alittle.SORRY.i meant what i say from now on can?i will make all what i promised come true.i remembered all of them.really.
i know you have a very fragile heart.such that you can be real easily affected by just one word.i know but i neglected it once again): come to think.what i have contributed in this friendship is so little.you're always there to cheer me up when i did nothing.worst still i hurt you.
felicia.forgive this stupid meijun who dun even know how to cherish you.i write this not for show.i meant it.i mean what i say.i didn't know that you wanted to comfort me and that my one message saying that i wanted to be alone will make you hurl back.seriously i don't.
i think i have neglected real alot of people.when i can't make a decision i will just put it aside.from now on i won't.i keep asking who hurt you in your blog.when i'm the one who hurt you most.as a friend i'm so bad):
will '10pages' mend this temporary gap? if yes.i write again(:
you were the one i turned to when i'm sad.now that you're sad.i want you to tell me openly and not to keep it.i'm dumb you see.so i need to be hinted.please do forgive me okay?
aaaaaaaaaah!i dunno how to say sorry so that you can forgive me.i typed and typed.do you get what i am trying to say? friends are the best thing one can get in her lifetime.i remembered how i lost one very good friend-lina.and i dun want to repeat it again.can you not drift away from me. and not get hurt.at least dun make it a permanent hurt.i have made such a BIG confession here. and hoping that felicia can reply with a YES.(:
MEIJUN YOUR FOREVER FRIEND.
dear diary,
i want to be forgiven.
Labels: friends are the last thing i can afford to lose.
